My Last Confession

Over and over
and what is the point?

I lie down and practice
breathing
as if I forget how it’s done

Praying to nameless
that these chest pains
are only anxiety

I keep on doing it,
this living thing
Keep on continuing
because I do not
know anything else

And over and over
So what is the point?

Struggling to find the strength
to remove this mental blade
from my ribs

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Today is day 67 since my last drink.
It’s been 80 days since my last confession.