I’m feeling pressure,
I’m feeling knife tip
between my ribs
feeling like my
heart & lungs
are too big for my chest
or maybe my cage is getting smaller
it didn’t use to be this way;
things were so much simpler.
where did I go wrong?
I take deeper breaths now.
I go for walks
& meditate, but
mostly I just think
about what was
& what will be
and wonder what it is I should be learning from all this
tension;
stress;
anxiety.
my cage, it’s getting smaller.
what put the fear inside of me?
I want to change the way I think & speak.
I want to know
how to let go
& accept this pain
when it insists on staying.